Monday, September 12, 2011

Blind

I just had to write about this. Last night i went to a concert with some people i am close with, the show was Head, Project 86, Spoken. The Wedding, and I Am Empire. All the bands put on an amazing performance and we all had a great time, and I know for a fact that God was showing not only me things about my life, but other people as well.
Now as i have said before, i used to be quite the party, sinning, not caring guy ( used to be ), and one of the bands that i used to listen to and in a way model alot of my behavior by was the group called Korn. They were mine and my friends rowdy music that we would get drunk and all other kinds of junk and just be very foolish.
The song that always got to me was the song "blind". The song was heavy and angry and full of anger and angst, which i was as well. So this became like our "party anthem."
So back to the concert; Head was the main act on the bill, and as many of you know he was the lead guitar player and backing vocals for the band Korn. His story and testimony is amazing if you haven't heard it or read it yet you really should. Anyway, he started out with a couple old Korn songs, which was odd to me but it really fit in line with the story that he was telling with his transformation to the man he is today.
But then halfway into his set he started a medley of songs from Korn and there was no vocals, but then out of nowhere he broke into the song "blind".
At first this was not a problem, i was getting down, enjoying a song that i have known for a long time, but then half way through the song i almost got into the mosh pit ( till i realized that i am to old and fat for that!)
Then sitting on the outside of the pit a wave of emotions just poured down on me, just guilt and shame and sorrow for the things that i did while listening to this song in the past. It was so bad that i had to go outside by myself and calm down.
While i was out there, sitting by my car with my head in my hands, i just began praising God and thanking him for taking me from that horrible sinful hell-bound life that i was so enthralled in, His grace, mercy, and love alone took me from the wretched, lost, self-destructive sinner I was then and transformed me into the God loving, God fearing, God centered man I am today.
And that was not all!
After all the bands played, the pastor from the church came up and started talking, he had us clear a path for people to "come on down!" Kind of shoving the prosperity gospel at these kids, which i don't really agree with, but it was the way he does his thing i guess. Anyway after that he apparently hit a nerve with my buddy Aaron, he started talking about how alot of Christian's have lost their way and this is a pivotal moment and if they wanted to come up and re-dedicate their life to Christ, they would help with that. Now this was in a sense just another form of the prosperity gospel, but it touched my friend and he took the walk.
Now on the way home I followed all up on the things that he heard at the service that night, not wanting him to be confused about the message that was out there. And he listened and seemed to really get it and enjoy it. So long story short, he is going to church with me this Sunday and i really pray and hope in all sincerness and love that he stays with it.
So anyway, last night was such a fun night of music, family, and friends. And the way that God showed up and showed me how far He has taken me was just spectacular.
I just wanted to share that, so God bless the bands that were there, they all have their stories and if you have time go check the bands out and see what they have going on. God bless my buddy Aaron, its good to have you on the team :). And God bless my bro Bob and his little boy Benny who rocked it at his first show ever, i couldn't have imagined a better time with a couple better dudes.