“Call now; is there anyone who will answer you?
To which of vthe holy ones will you turn?
they are crushed in ythe gate,
and he takes it even out of thorns,1
cmarvelous things without number:
and hgrope at noonday as in the night.
and jinjustice shuts her mouth.
he oshatters, but his hands heal.
and shall not fear tthe beasts of the earth.
and your descendants as wthe grass of the earth.
Now this really spoke to me. Its a reality that i am coming to find that when you get closer and deeper into your theology and scripture of the Gospel, the devil comes at you harder and harder every time. Today was a prime example of this. Now this week has been a big one for me, i started going to a new church, and so far it is a great place so I am very stoked about that. Got to spend some good time with my brother Mason and that is always a good time with just friendship and fellowship. And today i got to go have some coffee with the pastor from this new church! Just awesome things happening all by the grace of God.
But after all this I am home alone with my son Eli and there are some guys outside fixing the balconies on the apartment to get them ready for painting. Well as anyone knows, that kind of work is quite noisy and annoying, so to make a long story short, they woke Eli up from a much needed nap. And i got so angry! Enraged, just vile spitting hatred for these guys who are just doing there job, and doing a very thorough and fast job of it. But i didn't care, it was so hard not to run out there and throw mass amounts of gravel at them while telling them how mad they have actually made me. By the grace of God i refrained from doing this, but what i did in my heart was not any better. The bible says if you have hatred towards another person you have murdered them in your heart, so BOOM, broke a commandment, broke it big time.
So later i am sitting here feeding Eli his dinner, praying and repenting of my sin that i committed and just farting around on the computer when I grabbed my bible i just got in the mail today. I felt God wanted me to open it and he pointed me to the book of Job. Chapter 5 to be exact. I read that and it was a good thing I was already sitting down because it knocked me for a loop! Talk about humbling and really putting all this into perspective!! So i of course, with tears in my eyes in awe of the absolute power and grace of God, spent the next ten to fifteen minutes just praising, repenting and glorifying God.
What i am getting at here, is no matter what God loves you. He wants you to become the person he created you to be. Jesus became man and walked this earth, tempted by every sin we have been and more, he bore our punishment, took our judgment of the wrath of God, lived a sinless life and died for all of our sins. And if you repent, believe in this, pick up your cross and follow Him, you will live in eternal life and happiness. Jesus was in a way the second Adam, and when we become believers in His word and love, He sees us like Jesus. If that is not a complete life altering revelation, I don't know what could be.